Damned be thy name

"Acane... What are you doing?"

I'm waiting in my cold cell, reflecting on my past life, when the bell begins to chime; I don't have much time, because at 5 o'clock, they take me to the Gallows pole.

The sands of time, for me are running low.

"Running low...."

When the priest comes to give me the last rites, I take a look through the bars at the last sights of a world that has gone very wrong for me. Everything that happened must have been some sort of error. Now it's hard to stop the surmounting terror. Is this really the end or just a crazy dream? Somebody please tell me that I'm dreaming....

"You are not dreaming. This is real. But I can help you..."

It's not easy to stop from screaming. Words escape me when I try to speak. Tears flow, but why am I crying? After all I'm not afraid of dying. I never believed there would never be an end...

"But it does not have to end like this. All you have to do is let me help you..."

As the guards bring me out in the courtyard, somebody crys from a cell "Gods be with you!". I have to smile. None of them gods would not let me die. As I walk, all my life drifts before me. And though the end is near, I am not sorry.

"You were freed from the damned yet you believe this is your fate?"

As my executioner ties the rope around my neck, I wish I found the strength to speak. Mark my words, believe my soul lives on. I'm not worried now that I going. I'm going beyond to seek the truth. When you know your time is close at hand, you begin to understand that life is just a strange illusion.

"Although it might seems like an illusion, it is all you have. Are you ready to lose it?"

The traps open and then I fall. My heart stops and I wait for my death. When I reach the end my neck cracks but does not snap. The horror fills me as I try to gasp for air. Pain flares up as I suffocate. The cheers of the crowd fade fast and I'm left alone in agony.

"The faithless and the damned will welcome you..."

I'm losing consciousness. There is nothing peaceful about death. There is only fear, pain and loneliness.

I don't want to die.

I know....